you know who...or do you?

xo

Photography pt.1- Marcelo Gomes.

im honestly torn right now. Marcelo and Frank are head to head right now with competeing for my heart with favorite string of photos at the moment..

xo

change your lifestyle.

Now that i've started and i just cant stop.

boys are a big waste of time.

flying solo is the way to go.

xo

why do i...so bad

xo

Dear Song: you are cute.

I think that possibly, maybe I'm fallin' for you
Yes, there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you
I've seen the paths that your eyes wander down
I wanna come to
I think that possibly, maybe I'm fallin' for you

No one understands me quite like you do
Through all of the shadowy corners of me

I never knew just what it was
About this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew
I never knew just what it was
About this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew

I think that possibly, maybe I'm fallin' for you
Yes, there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you
I've seen the waters that make your eyes shine
Now I'm shinin' too
Because, oh because, I've fallen quite hard over you

If I didn't know you, I'd rather not know
If I couldn't have you, I'd rather be alone

I never knew just what it was
About this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew
I never knew just what it was
About this old coffee shop I love so much
All of the while I never knew
All of the while
All of the while
It was you

xo

simple math

13/37 + 0/0 = ♥

do you remember?

Always & Forever; Mikey.

Sometimes, even the best fall down

geebaby

& andd you'll be in my heart..

Micheal Gee..#12 on the ice, but #1 in my heart

July 27th 1989- April 8th 2005

Perfect is an underestimate.. i still wish i could understand why someone dicided you needed to be taken so soon. I truly was touched by an angel. the good die young but only the best die younger. Youd do anything from brushing your teeth on webcam to dressing up in a pig costume to get the one reaction you loved, a smile from someone you cared about. I keep on remembering how i could always count on you to make me feel better and how you were the only guy I count always count on to bring a smile back onto my face. I keep telling myself that your still gonna be here and i'll still see you again, which someday i know i will. A lot of time has passed, but for me and many other this is this the hardest memory we hold on to, and i want you to know, were trying our hardest to keep smiling, (especailly me) because we know if you were here that is what you would want. I still think about you every day, and the little things still remind me of you. I need you more then ever right now.. seriously i do. You were the only person I know I could talk to about everything. Guy situations are as messy as always, and your advice was the only thing that ever worked.I feel like im falling apart but then i remember you taught me unbeleivable amounts in the times that we had and it’s the traits that your potrayed give me something to live for. Its people like you that makes me believe I can always be a better person then I already am. School is busy, as is work, and i'm doing very well in both, but sometimes it's hard to stay motivated knowing that I wont be able to come home and tell you about it.

Mikey, you touched so many people, and every where I go someone knew you. There is still so much orange out there, and everytime i see it it warms my heart up a little bit. So much has happened in the past few years and its still frusterating to me because there isn’t many people that know what it feels like to loose your everything. and there is still alot of times where you are the only person i want to talk to. Calling you my best frined is only the beginning becuase you always understood me no matter what & you were always there for me. you were never pushy with me, you always gave me time and space and then advice at the right times. When i cried you listened and when I smiled it was because of you. For all the times I was upset with the world and with life and you pulled me through it all. You were the only person I could really trust. All the times I called you upset about something and you just let me unload it all and talked when i needed it and kept quiet when i didn't. We could talk about anything for forever because we were just us. I will never forget all the secrets we shared with each other. To this day you are still the only person who opened up my eyes to a whole world i didn't even know existed. Without you i would know so little, and i give you so much credit becuase you taught me almost every life lesson i know. you taught me how to be real. Sometimes when im really down, and can't figure out if it's even worth it, i remember you there always pulling me out of my hole and brushing me off, but most importantly you letting me fight my own battles, which im still very good at today.

You know me, sometimes i'm trouble, and i dont think i will ever find another person who never gets mad at me, and never lets me fall asleep without knowing they love me. When i feel broken and used and misunderstood, i picture you are there standing beside me and now as the little voice in my head. Thank you, for being the friend who walked in when the rest of the world walked out, for not giving up on me, for not leaving even when i tried to push you away & for always being there no matter how difficult it was for you to be.

you've given me my wings and taught me to fly.

i love you & miss you sooo much! rest in peace mikey.

keep showing heaven what it really means to be an angel

&

don't stop showing them the heart you have for hockey babe.

you truly are, and always will be my inspiration.
Mike, I still miss you more than you'll ever know.

Let your smile shine on forever.

i truly can not believe it has been 1 2 3 4 years.

not a day goes by geebaby... not a day goes by.

just be.

xo

txt msg : sent received

thank you for keeping a smile on my face all day long!

...all from just one little txt.

too bad YOU will never know what it said..

xo

music & me

i would honestly die if i didn't have my music..

way #1238716296875 to win my heart: write me a song : check

xo

Ohh ohhh woww yeaa.

Back off loneliness and hello tenderness,

i've been waiting for your call for so long

and it must been hard just to follow your soul,

to stick to the road that your heart wants you to go

and as you slide through the doorwith your morals on your sleeve

and i think it's time for all those morals to leave

so lets get down and freaky baby, let's get restless baby

come on get crazy with me...

..and i said

when you're loving me, i'm loving you

and i love your prowess and the things that you do

and it's your flawless soul that bleeds my stone

and when you're loving me i'm loving you

and that's when we've got it goin' on oh goin' on

and i was soand i eneded another home a

and you fly in my arms you just fly into my arms.

xo

waiting & wishing.

xo

mmm boy <3

♥ x 77

xo

only 70 to go.

run.. jump.. hug.

& don't let go. ever.

xo

can't get enough

boyyyy!

i dont know how you do what you do, but i just cant get enough.

xo

tie dye, cheesy horrors & much rather be..

ahh up so early at work this morning! and im soo tired!- thank goodness it's only a half shift today! Wicked Friday night with Shann, spent tie-dying, and watching old 90's "scary" movies.. such as the Final Destination series!.. super cheesy, & pretty lame, i was however a little scared to drive home alone later. (dont laugh im a wuss). Hope your Friday night was as good as mine =]. I'm interested to see what Saturday has in storeee! (tie dye finished product pictures coming soon!)


p.s. i'd much rather be crawling into your bed to snuggle, than be here at the spa so bright and early.

thinking of youuuuu

xo

so sick, soo much school work, & still wishing.

i was feeling a little bit sick yesterday, but i figured it was just from my raindrop massage on Thrusday. But i woke up today feeling even sicker! my voice even sounds like a mann, yippee!

Exhibit 1: what i look like at work this morning.

This week at school is gunna suck major =P

To Do :

• Entrepreneur Case Study(thursday)- Status; almost complete
• Marketing Case Study(tuesday)- Status; haven't started
• Study for Marketing Quiz (monday)- Status; haven't started
• Wine Project- Status; unknown/in the works (not due for a while but need to get it done)
• Prep for Hospo (wednesday)- Status; somewhat started
• Study for Entrepreneur Quiz (thursday)- Status; haven't started
• Brain storm menu ideas and create logo for Entrepreneurship project(tuesday) Status; started
• Start to study for Wine test since its going to be freaking hard ( Next Monday) Status; haven't started
• Finish progress report for Business Communications (?) Status; i HATE this teacher..
• .... probably a few more things that i can't think of right now =(
  

Exibit 2: what at least one of the above will look like when its time to submit it becuase it wont be done =(

Still wishing.. seriously can't stop thinking about you

Exhibit 3: you

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xo

Do you have it?

Make a wish and place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want. Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true. You never know where the next miracle is gonna come from, the next smile, the next wish come true. But if you believe that it's right around the corner, and you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the certainty of it-you just might get the thing you're wishing for. The world is full of magic. You just have to believe in it. So make your wish. Do you have it? Good. Now believe in it. With all your heart.

xo

the heart above my bed

so those of you that have seen my room, you may remember that 3/4 of my walls were covered top to bottom in pictures. there was pretty much a picture of me and everyone that i have ever been friends with.. with pictures dating all the way back to... grade 7? anyways, you also may remember my post about defragmenting the un-important people in my life.. and i performed a similar process in my bedroom! instead of keeping pictures up of people that don't matter, and apparently never did, and people that have tried to break my heart, possibly succeeded, possibly not, i only kept those of the ones who i know i can trust with my heart, and that have and will always be there... i made all the pictures into a shape of a heart above the head of my bed, and i found it very interesting that i came across a photo in a magazine after i went through with this bedroom make-over that looks just like mine. anyways, now only the people that matter hang above my bed and close to my heart, and dont worry, there are some duplicates up there, so if you walk into my life and make a difference, ill be able to find a spot for you. <3

while im at it, i feel a long overdue tribute is in order..

to those in my heart, & above my head:

there are a few special people who have always been there for as long as we've been friends, whether its been 19 years, or not even one, you have never turned your back on me.

none of you will ever know how much you mean to me. i didnt even know how much you guys meant to me until recent events made me think about what my life would be without you. i would be nothing, each one of you makes my life everything it is. theres nothing i love more then just sitting and talking with any one of you..you guys are my everything and i just want you to know how much i love you. you have a permanent spot in my heart above my head. thank you.

xo

so close yet too far...

we are close enough that i can draw a heart around us on a map.. but thats still not close enough for me..

"time is the greatest distance between two places"

..just a matter of time <3

xo

take my hand

& walk with me.